We humans are funny sometimes. We will say a Hail Mary or Our Father in an effort to pray to God Who loves us more than we can manage to express, but we often withhold the real life things from God; the things that we need to cry out to God about.
We may think that God will not understand our anguish or anger. We may think that God doesn't care. We may be in spiritual desolation and not know it. There are many reasons why, unlike Queen Esther, we refrain from sharing our life with God.
No matter how long it has been, there is always the opportunity of a new beginning with God. Yesterday is gone. Today is full of hope and forgiveness. The consolation of Lent helps us to know beyond a doubt that God understands and loves us through and through. Jesus cried out to his Father. Jesus felt excruciating physical and emotional pain. Jesus was tempted to struggle with spiritual desolation. Knowing this, what would ever prevent me from relying on him?